Letting go..

Sometimes I am just so amazed at the things God is doing. There are just so much to thank Him for. Recently have been quite a down turn for me. Things are good but somehow I felt the dissatisfaction in my heart. It feels like a fish out of water, there is just a constant struggle. Every morning I wake up and I feel lost. Don't know what lies ahead, no mood for anything, no direction. All I could do is to pray and rely on Him. Without Him, I really do not know how to ge by the day. There was such a desperate need for God. Never in my life I felt this before.

I believe God is molding me. He is developing the fruit of the spirit in me one by one. End of last year was patience, then was faithfulness and now is self control. One by one, God just put the word in my heart. This is definately not the most 'fun' time of my life but definately it is a very significant time in my life.

Many times we live either regreting our past or worrying about our future. I have been living like this. I forgot to live now. I have missed so many opportunities because I did not cherish the 'NOW'. And I realise that many times there are struggles in our lives because we want the things we want. We pray, we beg God, but many times we really do not know what we are asking for. The things that we desire might not be what God wants for us. The struggle can be over just by simply letting go of what we desire and yield ourselves to Him. Trusting His way is always the best for us. However, the letting go is not easy. It is a constant change of our mind and when the thought come, we need to keep reminding ourselves that God is in control now, not me.

I pray that my dear friend will live a abundant life, a life full of passion, zeal, courage for the future, that our struggles in life will be over and be in the will of God, serving and loving Him.